Where is the reciprocity?
Its SO sad to have to be in this position. Its SO sad to know that the “friends” I have cannot be my friend once I have messed up or have made a mistake. What kind of friends are you? Making mistakes does not mean I’m a bad person. Making stupid mistakes does not mean I don’t deserve your friendship. If anything, I need your friendship more than anything. But to see how things are right now - its pathetic. I’m always asking myself “What did I do to deserve this?” What? Were my mistakes big enough to throw away a 6, maybe even 7 year friendship?
And what about your mistakes? What about that time when you felt down in the blue about ALL your boy troubles? I was there. I was that homegirl who was down to hear you cry, to hear to you talk about them, to make you smile and make sure you were included. Now, where is the reciprocity?
I deserve better.
And this is why I hate studying with people. There are so many distractions caused by other people that its a waste of my time. Yes, a waste of my time. My ears are always ready and my heart is always there to help, but honest to God I am not always there to hold your hand every step of the way. I need to take care of my self and my priorities. This is why I need my space. I need time to think for myself and to act for my self. Here I am already stressed about my own studies, yet you’re making me even more frustrated by your worries, your stress, and all your freaking useless conversations that I don’t need to hear.
Seriously, what happened to the Trang who closed herself up and forbid anyone to come close to her - especially during midterm/final week? She needs to come back.
The hardest thing about letting go is seeing a part of your past leave too. The laughter you’ve shared, the places you’ve gone to, and the memories you’ve made - those should be reminisced with genuine happiness. There comes a day however, where what occurred in the past must stay in the past. We all grow differently and separately. We grow and sometimes we grow apart.
I should be grateful that we have even grown up at all together. I guess my issue is that I can’t let go of that past. I don’t want to accept that I’ve been the person to grow out of our memories while everyone else have grown closer. But I can begin to see that doing so is only good for me.
God, you really do take care of me. Thank you
I’m so frustrated, irritated and angry altogether. I’m trying my best to not let these words get the best of me, but I can’t help but feel so angered at their words. How disrespectful of them to even mutter those words to him knowing that I am by his side! I knew it from the moment I witnessed their interaction that something was wrong, but to have the audacity to approach him while I am by his side and to even ask me to take him away, they’ve definitely crossed the line. I don’t like them. I don’t like her. I don’t care that they are now considered family or in-laws. The fact that they are saying these things continuously without keeping in mind my feelings and the idea that I’m his girlfriend is so disrespectful and rude that it makes me so frustrated! I had already tried to express myself, but tell me why it feels like he doesn’t care or as if he’s not even trying to resolve the situation?! I had cried, we had fought, we had talked several times about this over the past couple days that I am so uncomfortable with the idea of them at all, yet I STILL hear about it. What am I, deaf? What am I, stupid?
I don’t care that you don’t think it’s a big deal because I’m yours. The fact that I don’t like it and have cried over it – doesn’t that trigger some sort of impulse in you to try and help me feel better? I’m not asking you to do anything drastic, I just wanted you to make it clear for once and for all to everyone that you have no intention of getting with her. Yet the fact that you haven’t done that, or don’t think that it’s a big deal at all hurts me very much. I’m trying so hard to not this get to my head, but I can’t. I can’t and it’s making me so frustrated at you even when I know I shouldn’t be. All I’ve asked is for you to take action and to make sure they stop…but you’ve done nothing and they continue to talk. I’ve heard at least 3 comments the past several days regarding you guys, and I’m sick of it. If I hear anything else or anything more about this, I’m going to stop altogether. I don’t deserve to be sitting next to my boyfriend and hear people talk about how he’s cuter with another girl or that we should break up so they could hook up. I mean really? This is so stupid. I’m done.
jleiulsejnfjdhgnkrjdhgjslfksddl.ghalfkmd I need to go for a run. This is so stupid, and it’s taking a toll on me.
I have little to no respect for those who sit and speak, but does not make a single move. What is the point to speaking if you cannot support what you say with what you do? It’s very hypocritical and it’s very embarrassing…for yourself. Although I am frustrated with people like you, I am also empathetic because you will have to work harder to gain people’s trust when you continue to live your life the way you do.
Please stop thinking that the world revolves around you, or that you’re the only exception to all rules because last time I checked, the world doesn’t know or care who you are. Reality check please.